I hate Mondays. I will never get used to going to school on Mondays.
Well, that's the beauty of studying in Miriam College (HEU). At least, that's what I think right now. Usually, we go to school on Mondays, not because of academic purposes but for our organizations. So lucky for those students who are not involved in many orgs. But recently, we've been going to school every Monday cause our org keeps on having these major meetings.Not that I'm complaining or anything :)
But these past 2 weeks, it seems that my Monday is very much more than vacant. Last week I was in Batangas, oh that reminds me, it was a bloody holiday that's why I wasn't in school for any particular reason. HAHA. My apologies. :)
So anyways, I was bored this afternoon so I decided to leave the house. I also need some time alone and the best way to do that is to WALK. And so I did. I went to Starbucks in Ali Mall because coffee shops in Gateway & Araneta Colosseum is jam packed and it was very, very noisy. When I arrived in starbucks, i found the perfect place for me to sit. I brought out my "hero journal" - it's a semestral homework for Ms. Antee's class and my scratch notebook and Bob Ong's new book: Ang mga kaibigan ni Mama Susan. I ordered a mocha frappe and started writing in my journal and then afterwards wrote some of the things I need to work on, specifically the story I've been working on since forever.
Okay, so you might be wondering why I was all alone at such a place. Well to tell you the truth I was still pissed on what happened last saturday (see Lying my way out). I don't know if should be angry, it's rather confusing to feel that way. It was so hard being alone and I needed something to keep my mind off those things. So I tried calling Anna first but then she had class, Maan who needs to go home after 3pm and then there's Cy who did not answer my call. I remembered Katrin, but then she told me she's up to 4:30 and I thougth I'd be going home by then. At around 3:30 she asked me where I was and then told me if I want to with her to Centerpoint. (Yeah, sure it's a crappy mall and there are lots of jejemons around there but what the heck! I want/need a friend)
A few minutes on the train and viola! I'm on the other side of town already.. well, almost :D
I arrived before Katrin so I walked around a little bit. When she arrived, she asked me if we could stop by the food court because she needs to see someone. Of course, do I have a choice? She met one of her fellow student from PUP (a few years older than us, I think). Silly of me, I forgot her name (SORRY!). She asked Katrin to go shoe shopping with her, and I thought "Now?? But I need to talk to Kat about some things. Personal things." And then Katrin asked me if I don't mind. Of course I mind!!! Hello?? I'm really emotionally bothered by what happened last saturday and I was not in the mood for some shoe shopping, not in Centerpoint at least. So there, I went with them, like I have a choice.
Did I sound selfish back there?
I also told her that I saw her friend, Ninay, who's Jeric's new girlfriend. Kat told me that Ninay finds me scary. Like I'm 'masungit' 'mataray'. I ogled at her and asked her what made her think that way. Hey, I don't bite. HAHA. That was rather funny. I was just in a mad mood last Saturday.
Well, I need to talk to Katrin back there. As in in real talk. No offense to her friend but they see each other in school, i think everyday? I was a bit frustrated at first but it seems that her friend is not going anywhere, so I didn't tell Katrin how and what was really bothering me.
What I need back then was Katrin alone. I don't feel comfortable talking my heart out when there's another stranger in front of me, listening to every bit of my problems.I just wish Kat had made some time for the two of us alone. I just wanted to talk, that's all.
So many things happened in the past few months and it's hard to keep track of them. Everything seems to move so fast that I don't have enough time to catch up with my old friends. It's been really hard.
I wish it could all just slow down before 2010 ends.
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