YOU = my biggest mistake + my favourite lesson.

I'm so sabaw because I just finished reading the Phenomenology of Love. It's our homework and I'm not reading  it for the sake of February, as we know it, the love month. The idea of reading this at a month like this made me more confused than ever. I don't know why though.

Earlier, I had this little conversation with Cy and Anna. Cy's word's hit me like a cold slap in the face, surely I must admit that. Here's our conversation:

Sometimes I wonder why do I even bother telling my friends that I don't want to talk to that other guy. It's something buried already and its hard to dig deep again. It's like I'm going to get answers anyway. I told that I'm scared. Scared of own feelings actually. I always think, "mind over matter". And my pride, I'm a person of my words, very stubborn actually. If you don't talk first, I won't talk at all. That's what I believe. So I just run away from it.