Getting lost in my own atmosphere

Poker Face: expressionless: a face showing no expression and revealing nothing about what somebody is thinking or feeling

---expressionless, blank, impassive, emotionless, deadpan, straight-faced, reactionless

antonym: expressive

This is me lately. Gaah. I don't know what's my problem. I think I'm turning again into this bipolar bitch back in summer.

Yes.

Now I know. I felt exactly like this last summer :|

Only now, I've been expressionless.

Just like that.

Misery is eating me :| or Am I just pressured that midterm exams' approaching :|

Be the Judge.

Kuya Bado took this candid shot last saturday while having our shoot in UP.

Hope I'll sort things out soon or else I'll go crazy.

I want to tell lots of things to my bestfriends but they seem so far away. Nothing's wrong in telling my college friends but I feel more comfortable in telling this matter to my bitches :| They know me well ( I think, I hope)

Flashback Manila's first photoshoot last July 23, 2010

Even though the environment was not cooperating with us and the production team had to improvise with the sudden change of themes, I could say we had fun and the shoot was a success.

In behalf of FBM, I would like to thank Roxanne Ibasco for helping us in the photoshoot. She was kind enough to let us use her house as FBM’s home base for awhile :D
Second, I give my full thanks to our models who participated despite having a hectic schedule and making an effort to be there. I express my gratitude to FBM’s new found models, Krstelle Santiago, Doreen Cardinal, Mitchel Cruz Obispo and Ron Coronado for giving your best shots :)) Seriously, nahihiya ako sa mga models namin :)) Kitel had to be in all of our set because we couldn’t find a model who’s really willing to pose for FBM and do it for free :D Mitch had to travel from Fairview to Commonwealth during the heavy rain and yung taxi driver didn’t get the exact location of Roxy’s village. Doreen and Naldie for supporting us all the way. Naldie was a great additional to Models and a big help too.
ALSO, kuya bado for lending us a hand :)) Sobrang ang laki ng naitulong nyo samin kuya! :D We learned a lot from you.

Third, I would like to thank Sue Ronquillo and Leea Caleja for giving their full efforts in this company. Without you, this shoot wouldn’t be successful. Gumastos tayo, napuyat, nabasa ng ulan, nagutom, nainis at ubos ang pera but it was all worth it :D

It was tiring but I had so much fun :D

Confused :|

I don't know what's up with me these past few days. I'm a little confused and coffee's not doing me any good. Some thoughts are invading my head again and I don't like it one bit. It's so hard to choose, so hard to decide.

During our recollection, I did some thinking over things I did and should have done in past. A month ago I was contented and happy with my life.

I have great family, friends a school that can really help me with my future career and a good environment (Yes, I am so thankful that my school is located in Katipunan, QC.). Until it hit me, something is missing. I don't what is but I can really feel that something is missing. It's like I want to be distant for a while so that I can figure what is it that's missing.

But I am pretty sure that it's something that I did back then and now it's confusing me to death. I've been thinking about it since yesterday but up to now, I have no answering.

I am a strange little thing.

I can't figure myself out.

GAH.

Sophomore

hello sophomore me :))