Can I just say how blessed I am with my friends?

My friends are the ones who make life bearable to live in, specially when I'm really down and feeling shit about myself. Even though I made mistakes in life, they're always there for me no matter what. I really appreciate what they have done for me recently and I'm just glad they're there to listen to my rantings.

Yeah, I just feel like I'm going through a lot right now. I wish I could say more because I really just want to let it all out in this blog and I really feel that it's not appropriate to blog about certain things right now. 

Anyway, I think I let it all out by talking to some of my closest friends back in high school and I'm really overwhelmed that they really care. 

I really have to sort some things out. 

XO

"If you give space, someone will take your place."

Just a little something I heard over the radio.

She's burning like fire and raging like the stormy sea yet her air can be calm as a monsoon breeze.

changing...

Its tough when you've been taught to be strong. Now, I'm hard as a rock, cold as ice.

- things I realize as I grow up.

Simply black and white

Marmi with this Nikon D80

Marmi and Kitty looking serious :)) I wonder what's the commotion here?

With Bea, we look tired here. :))) 

Marmi getting a little frustrated

Test 123

saturation is the key

Kitty you look like a vampire here :)) 

Crazy dreamer on the block

Is it me or my dreams gets even weirder and weirder every single time?

I had this dream where in Ian Somerhalder was in our school for no reason (at the TV production lab just so you know) and everyone was screaming very loudly and seriously freaking out while I just stood there and poked him, POKED HIM!!! I mean who on earth would meet a huge celebrity and just poke him?? I had to see if he was real or not. Apparently, it was just a dream so no. :|

Another one was I'm in a forest and I was lost. I ran, walked and got tired. Feels like I was Alice in Wonderland but the fact that I was lost freaked me out a little bit.

The most recent one (last night) I had was the most weird! In my dream, I was in Antipolo (an hour drive away from Quezon City), in front of a church where in I was talking to  my friend Abbey to remove her baggy pants and just wear the shorts she was wearing inside but then she said her mad would get mad if she saw her wearing shorts. So we went to this bakery and ate yummy pastries and bread. Seems normal eh? Thing is, I was really hyper like I was on drugs and I had no shoes on and was prancing around Antipolo barefooted! Plus I was wearing this flowy floral dress. After that, I was suddenly in front of Sue's house and she found me there and asked why I had no shoes on! HAHAHA. crazy right? :D

I was sorta like this, prancing around the streets of Antipolo 

I was really high just like Cassie on Skins season 3 hahaha. 

Cassie on high :)) Yep. It feels a lil bit like this. =))

Worst feeling ever . . .

You know the gut feeling deep inside your stomach as if you're going to flip and your heart is going to drop out of its place and just knew something was wrong and you can't tell what it is?

The feeling that you just wanted to cry and scream so hard until I can feel my throat bleeding?

Is it possible for a person to feel depressed about nothing?

Or I just feel like sometimes I'm not good enough?

I feel like this is the point in my life that I am most vulnerable. I try to be strong and perfect all the time as if I was programmed that way, that is why I hate committing mistakes. I feel like crap whenever something goes terribly wrong.


At times, I feel alone, even though I have a great family and circle of friends that's surrounding me everyday, sometimes I just feel lonely and something is wrong.


Something is wrong with the air that I'm breathing or I'm just really stressed with school?

Am I that cynical?

I'm not the jolliest person you'll ever meet but I try to be.

(I feel like I need to see and talk to a clinical psychologist... Sir Motilla perhaps?)

I found photos 3 years ago! HAHAHAHA.

I look fuckin stressed!

doing last minute videos for our event: DETOUR, last September 17, 2011 @ Area 05, Tomas Morato

(photo taken by Kitel Santiago)

We love to eat! :) :p~~

Persepolis. Right after our 6pm saturday class :D 

Teriyaki boy after our mentoring. Popcorn and fruit shakes followed this.

Moonleaf @ Maginhawa st.

Moshi moshi!

Mom and Tina's cupcakes

Red Mango. Cocoa Pebbles + M&ms = heaven

Recommended! The Tea shop by wich kraft @ Katipunan  near Bo's coffee

Chocolat @ Abada St.

Cello's doughnuts! 

Waffles with yogurt, banana and almonds @ red mango

Tea.Ology

Serenitea @ Eastwood

Cha Dao milk tea! 

Saint's Alp!Delicious and a bit pricey. 

Derf's pizza! :)) 

I forgot what it's name but this is from Cobo @ Tomas Morato :D 

Amici @ Tomas Morato

Italian food is always <3 (Amici)

I can be mean like that. :)))

I really have this bad temper and I tend to be sarcastic whenever my period is near. I'm really moody, like I want to eat this, i'm overly joyed and hyper and next thing you know I'm like the wicked witch of the east and I just want to shot everyone in my way. -____- 

A month long break :D

bird watching before I leave manila

because I missed this dog so much, I gave him a nice bath :)))

Hanging out with Karenina :D 

Killed time while watching re-runs of the Glee Project. Totally crushing on Samuel :"> 

I even cleaned my room because I was bored. I found this note that Kare gave me during Sophomore Year due to some boy problems. HAHAHA!

Went to the beach with Karenina but it rained on us! Haha! Fail.

Photos were over exposed. Another Fail! =)))

Because Karenina went back to Manila I was again, one of the boys. O hello Jeric! *derp moment* =))

Spent the Friday afternoon with Cecille and Kuya Ian because my parents won't allow me to go to our class outing  at some resort (or so I though? haha.)

We visited our ancestor's grave last november 1. :) 

Played with my niece, Lucille

Light for the departed souls

Some stray kitty went at our house and he/she is very makulit!

Currently back in Manila and looking forward to my Christmas vacation. hihi.